Kuch Kuch Hota Hai

"To say or not to say ???"



It’s been a bloody whole month but still He has not been able to decipher and come out with an explanation of all the weird incidents he went through during all these days.



Understanding the Holfeldian’s theory of Rights, He felt, was much easier!!

Isn’t it quite common place and normal for a guy to like a girl especially when adrenalines pump high at this age?


But why it is so that every time She went around hanging with her male classmates He felt the green-eyed jealous monster in him, tearing him apart? Though subconsciously he realised they were just friends and She was as pure as the driven snow, but He just couldn't get over with this stupid feeling....

Why is it that whenever people around Him looked at Her with an awe, He felt the dagger gradually making deep inroads in his heart?........

Whenever She went out somewhere what made Him act a James Bond to inquire about Her whereabouts - where did She go? With whom? When will She come back?



So why every time He cunningly invented indigenous tricks to win over Her close friends and draw undue advantages of them just to stop her a little longer in the library or match her lunch time with His?


Why has it become a sort of a necessity for him to take a courageous walk past Her class every morning just to make sure whether She has come or not?

And finally why did He rush to the hospital, last week when He heard that She has been admitted due to ill health? Merely because He was a senior? If that was so why didn't He go inside and speak to her? What stopped Him at the door but be the last one to leave the Hospital?


He felt that His mind and heart were not working in tandem. The latter had started prevailing over the former. He found it extremely difficult to define this feeling - Was it a purely materialistic one? The physical aspect of it?

Serine and beautiful, doubtless she was, but then why even her physical absence created a soothing ambiance for him - just the sweet thought of her was enough to create the magic!


He dreaded at the thought of calling it 'LOVE'. He have had his past and bitter experiences wherein He realised that it is the most misused word on earth-an expression which people normally labels to a feeling which they are confused with. He had already learnt and paid for it. So no mistakes this time. He decided to be very cautious, practical and logical.



But destiny planned otherwise.

Suddenly She left home for few days without any rhyme or reason. While She was leaving He saw Her from a distance. Bags packed, She baded goodbye to Her friends and left in the auto leaving behind gushes of black smokes. Instantly, a deep melancholy note stuck him. He felt as if a part of His soul was leaving Him but He was helpless, He had so much to say....so many questions to ask...He could not do anything. He stood there - motionless and choked. Something within stopped Him; as if someone said, "even if it's your soul, what have you done to keep it close to your heart?" He had no answers.

Next two days were the most dreadful time of his life. Nothing felt good, right from food to friends - everything to everyone seemed bitter. Even while He was in a crowd he felt as if He were a Robinson Crusoe who has been dumped in the middle of a lifeless forest. Every minute, every moment seemed like an age. Beard grew thicker, eyes got red and life seemed meaningless. He had completely lost control over his own self.

Feeling really home sick, He called up his only childhood friend, Dev, to find a bit of solace - somewhere, anywhere…..But to his utter shock, he came to know that Dev was himself heart-broken. He was madly in love with a girl who lived next door for the past 8 years. He was this silent lover who was never able to muster the courage to express His feelings to Her. And who else knew it better than Him. But last week She suddenly left abroad for her higher studies for the next five years and now all His hopes were shuttered. She was gone, may be forever.

Life has its own course. May be this was the lesson He had to learn.

But Dev’s last words opened His eyes-

“Dost, I have realised that most of our problems in life is because we fail to express our feelings to the right person at the right place and moment. So express and reach out to Her. Remember when someone blinks a flutter in your heart, when someone makes you smile, She is the one you love. You love someone whom you want to make feel that She is special, for reasons only you know. And for God’s sake, you cannot be practical in love. You have to be illogical, even a little stupid. You have to be absolutely dumb when you are in love! If you are not goofy, then you are not romantic, you are calculative. Don’t make commerce and arithmetic out of love. It is too precious to be judged by al this. And therefore say what you have to say- Now Don’t Procrastinate …..Coz yesterday was history, tomorrow is mystery but today is gift. Go, grab it! My friend….people don’t bother to stoop down for diamonds when they are in plenty. So win your diamond before it fades out forever from your life!”


That was it! This was the revelation he needed. The picture was perfectly clear now.

HE WAS DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH HER AND NOW THERE IS NO LOOKING BACK.

He jumped down the stairs and went in middle of the lawn. The moon smiled at Him. He retorted back with a bigger smile and cried

“OO! Voluptuously beautiful nymph of Paradise …..I Love You….I am coming to seek you!